Careful. Cautious. Planning for all contingencies. This is me.
My mom says as a baby I didn’t walk until I was sure I could, so apparently I was born with perfectionism in tow. This makes me great with details and quite capable and responsible, but to say I don’t like to make mistakes is a huge understatement. Most of my life I’ve played it safe. No risks. Analyze a thing to death before moving.
Maybe not move at all.
There’s not much life in careful. Fear of failure is paralyzing.
So is fear of success.
It took crisis in my life several years ago for God to break the pattern. I found myself in a situation with absolutely no control, no way to anticipate the outcome, and no way to plan as He gently pried my fingers off the reins of my life and let me experience His truth.
“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” - Joshua 1:9
“It is God who works in you, both to will and to work for His good pleasure.” – Philippians 2:13
“For those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to His purpose.” – Romans 8:28
I still don’t want to walk until I’m sure I can. I still plan and analyze and prepare. I’m still terribly afraid of the uncertain and the unknown. But more and more I move anyway, in spite of the fear, in spite of the uncertainty, walking without knowing if I can, because what I do know is the Truth.
“Know the Truth, and the Truth will set you free.” – John 8:1
Know the truth and move anyway.